It’s been a couple months since I’ve actually touched the #NaNoWriMo project in earnest. Yes, I know, I’m disappointed in myself too. But even though I didn’t exactly plan this break, I think it has actually been good for me.
Yesterday was my day off from my real job, and I spent about five hours editing my manuscript — first at Starbucks, then at Cosi before heading to my volleyball double header (We don’t need to talk to the results of that one…) And you know what? I actually got some really good edits in, and I think I have to attribute some of that to the fact that these eyes have not been glued to those pages for seven or so hours a day in months. I was fresh. I had a new perspective, and I wasn’t afraid to red-pen out whole paragraphs or pages if necessary.
The other reason I was so productive is easy: Now that I’ve lost two months, my productivity is sky-rocketing. The new goal is to have my query packages in the hands of a selection of literary agents by no later than next Saturday. So what does that mean? I have to stuff some envelopes, right?
Oh Gosh, I wish. Last night I likened this part of the process to applying to college. You know what it’s like, This school wants the common app; This one wants four recommendations; This one can be submitted electronically, but needs 12 forms of ID including a blood sample. Each one of these literary agents wants something different, so last night I pulled a Total Maggie and made a spreadsheet so I could have an organized road map, spelling out what I need to accomplish and send for each agent.
I remember when I was a junior at Syracuse, I spent my Winter Break on the living room floor in the Farmhouse, creating a similar spreadsheet, in which I laid out the application guidelines for all 73 internships I applied to. Yes. 73. It was the longest month of my life, and my breath smelled like the sticky part on all those manilla folders for a solid day and a half after I mailed the last packet out. No, my vacation stories didn’t match up with the other girls’ in my sorority, but I ended up getting my top-choice spot, so it was worth it. That’s the only thing that’s keeping me on task with this endeavor. I just keep telling myself it’s going to be worth it. And it’ll be about 10 days this time, not a whole month.
I narrowed down the list of 28 potential agents I had created while in Mexico. The number is now considerably lower, which is a good feeling, given the fact that each agent packet is likely going to take an hour to organize — after I complete all the moving parts. So far, I’ve created the query letter, which I’ve sent out to about half a dozen friends for their constructive criticism and will complete polishing today. But after last night’s organizational all-nighter, I now know that I also need a one-page synopsis and a bio about me (apparently my 140-character Twitter info box just won’t be enough). In addition to that, I need to fast-track some of the editing I’ve been doing.
I know, I just said that I kicked some major editing butt yesterday. But that was all red-pen-on-page work, and now I need to enter those edits into the living, breathing Word document, which will ultimately take three times as long, as I second guess and ponder. Trust me. Editing Maggie is an inherently indecisive creature. Actually, wait, scratch that. I don’t think I’m indecisive. I’m more of a commitment phobe. My mind goes through this whole crazy thought process, where I question whether my new changes are really better than the original draft, and I freak out about the fact that changing the text is a huge decision, and panic about whether I’m ready to take that kind of leap.
No. It’s not normal, but at least if my book sells kajillions of copies I’ll be able to make a good case that therapy should be written off as a work expense…














